Missing her

Lately I have been thinking of my mother. I want to complain to her about how we cant get J to sleep at night and all he wants is the door to be open. I want to share with her how cool OPK's are and how they work. I want to tell her that my friend that I thought I lost is now back making her dry jokes and hoping I would get PG too so we can go through pregnancy together. I dont wan tto feel like I am as alone as I feel these days. I want my mom back. I want that unconditional love that you only get from a parent.

I still wonder where she is and why she doesnt show me she is around me.